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  I was made to take pleasure from your touch, and I writhe under you as you thrust. I wrap my legs around your waist and hold you closer. Under my hands your shoulders tense.

  Ecstasy fills me like water, overflowing. My body shakes. You hiss when I carve the evidence of my passion into your skin. You fuck me harder and we both surge into delight.

  Later, you stroke my hair as you murmur the litany of my many names. I am your princess, your waif, your creation. I am your desire made real.

  Chapter 4

  Her latest blog entry had been live for only a few minutes before the first comment came. The rush of it swept through Eve all the way to her toes. There was nothing quite like the thrill of almost-instant feedback.

  You’re brilliant.

  “Thanks, Puppetboy,” she murmured, leaning back in her chair. It wasn’t the first time he’d said so.

  Depeche Mode crooned at Eve from her speakers and she adjusted the volume as she refreshed her browser to reveal three more comments. Her email program dinged at the same time, alerting her. She smiled, savoring this. She’d make poor Puppet wait for a reply while she read the others.

  Eva had started blogging two years ago during a messy breakup with the man she’d been certain she was going to marry. Not because she was madly in love with him, though she had been, once upon a time. No, she’d been certain she would marry Brad because he loved her.

  Or at least he had, once upon a time.

  For Eve, the standard, once-a-week missionary position had ceased to satisfy, but Brad had been threatened by her suggestion they explore what he called “that kinky shit.” She’d long felt he didn’t really listen to her, but time and time again he proved it when she tried to interest him in something beyond the plain vanilla sex life they had.

  She couldn’t pinpoint when she knew she no longer loved him, nor could she determine exactly the moment he stopped loving her. It would have made things so much easier if she could. But no, convinced of the other’s esteem, both had struggled in the relationship for too long, until finally they both not only no longer loved each other, she was pretty sure she hated him. She guessed he felt the same, because someone who cares about another person doesn’t try to hurt them over and over again just for fun, which is what it felt like Brad was doing to her, and a person who loves another doesn’t shut that person out completely, the way she’d done to him.

  Her first blog had served as a way to relieve some of the anxiety of the breakup, which had turned ugly not only emotionally but financially. When Brad discovered what he considered a betrayal of their intimate life, it had turned ugly physically as well.

  He’d only hit her once, mostly by accident because she got between him and the computer he was intent on smashing, but once was more than enough. Eve had kicked him in the nuts and told him to get the fuck out of her house and her life. She hadn’t heard from him since, and if there were times when her bed seemed too vastly empty, there were more times when she considered the silence that greeted her every night the purest sort of blessing.

  The experience with Brad had taught Eve the wisdom of using a different name online, however, and she’d chosen Eris Apparent as sort of a whim. The goddess of chaos had seemed a perfect namesake for the turmoil in her life at the time.

  Her second blog wasn’t about her real life at all, but rather the life she imagined for herself. To her surprise, for Brad had done his best to convince her she was an anomaly, she was far from the only person blogging about sex. She’d discovered an entire community where she could, for the first time, be herself.

  Or someone else.

  Eris liked what Eve liked, but Eris was the one with the guts to put it out there for the world to see. Eris was the one who came up with the flirty, sexy responses or snappy comebacks. Eris was everything Eve was inside but hadn’t yet managed to bring to the surface. And also, frankly, Eris was Eve’s shield, saying and living the sorts of virtual experiences Eve was afraid to tackle in reality.

  Three more replies materialized, all from regular commenters. She granted Puppetboy some mercy and gave him a command or two she knew would send him into a frenzy of gratitude. Hell, truthfully, knowing that somewhere he was refreshing his browser as often as she was, hanging on her every word, was a huge turn-on. For Puppetboy, she was a goddess.

  She traded a few back-and-forths with fellow sex blogger lavender_whiskey, mostly good-natured taunts about the alternate uses for men’s ties. Lavender wrote more often about submission while Eve’s fantasies tended more toward being in charge, but both of them wrote about what they wanted.

  She hadn’t done ninety percent of what she wrote about, but that didn’t matter. That was the point of fantasy, after all. It didn’t have to be practical. She’d grown to think of Eris as almost a different person. Someone bolder. Someone worshipped.

  Loved.

  She was getting ready to sign off for the night when one last comment came through. She didn’t recognize the username, tell_me, but there was nothing unusual about that. Eris’s blog got hundreds of hits a day.

  I like what you want.

  Tired and ready for sleep, she debated not bothering to reply, but it had become a point of pride with her that all comments, aside from the obvious flames, got an answer. She hated blogs that grand-standed and poked, demanding attention, but gave none in return. If you were going to blog-hop and pimp yourself, you should be prepared to reply to someone who took the time to leave a comment.

  Thanks for stopping by, she typed. It was a mild answer, neither encouraging nor insulting.

  It was past time for bed. She’d spent hours online, chatting and commenting and living her life as someone different, but her real life paid the bills, and her real life body needed sleep. The ping of her email stopped her in the doorway, and like any true addict, Eve gave in and checked “Just one more time.” It was tell_me again.

  Do you really not care who I am? I think you do.

  She paused, fingers on the keyboard, debating. Was this a troll, or a sincere question? Commenters like Puppetboy never dared question her entries, but constant praise meant nothing without occasional criticism to temper it. And the use of I…

  Eve hesitated. She wrote a sex blog. She didn’t cyberfuck strangers.

  What makes you think I mean you?

  Two long minutes passed with agonizing slowness while she waited for the answer.

  Because you said so.

  She had to smile at that and admit it was true, at least as far as her word choice was concerned.

  So who are you? She waited, tension coiled tight in her belly and had almost given up when the new comment appeared, the answer that would keep her up, tossing and turning, for most of the rest of the night.

  I’m what you want.

  Chapter 5

  “Thanks for the coffee.” There was no way for her not to say it, not with Lane holding the elevator door open for her yet again. “It was good.”

  The door closed with a slow, dull thud, but the cranky elevator didn’t move. Lane punched the button for the fourth floor. The elevator shuddered slightly as a grinding noise came from above them and then lurched into its ascent.

  “Was it what you wanted?” The question, asked so casually, wasn’t what made the breath catch in Eve’s throat.

  No, that was from the look in Lane’s eyes.

  “It was good,” she repeated, her voice gone whisper-soft. Hoarse.

  Lane smiled. “Good.”

  If this was a story, she’d have pushed him back against the hazy mirrored wall and had her way with him…but this wasn’t one of her stories. Nothing ever was, that was the problem. Men…real men…inevitably disappointed, and dating someone she worked with?

  Not a fantasy she’d ever had, not even in her blog.

  She cut her gaze from his though she sensed his eyes on her until the elevator jerked to a reluctant stop and the doors creaked open. He reached to hold the door, which had a penchant for trying to trap people, and
Eve stepped through with a murmured “thank you.”

  “Any time,” Lane said.

  For one instant an image of Lane bending her over a smooth, polished desk filled Eve’s mind. Blood lifted to the surface of her skin, bringing heat. Her fingers would be spread. His hands would lift her skirt…

  “Hey, Lane, I was looking for you!” Debbie Chambers, Eve’s pod neighbor, pounced. “I’ve got a problem with my computer. Can you come help me?”

  Eve didn’t wait to see if Lane gave Debbie the same, slow smile he’d given her. She walked off with a small wave, not looking back.

  There was one major problem with that little scenario anyway, she thought as she slid into her chair and logged in. They worked at Digiquest, home to the typical office pod jungle. Nary a polished wooden desk to be found, even if it was what she wanted.

  Was it what you wanted?

  I am what you want.

  For an instant, she heard the words from last night’s new-found admirer spoken in Lane’s voice. She knew how he’d sound, how his voice would dip low and gravelly, even though she’d never heard it that way. Her belly tightened and her fingers hovered over the keyboard, itching to open her blog. To see if tell_me had commented again.

  Surfing the Internet for personal use was officially forbidden, even though she knew many of her colleagues spend as much time shopping, paying bills or online chatting with their friends as they did on their queues. She’d never heard of anyone getting in trouble as long as they met their quotas and didn’t do something stupid, like download porn. She didn’t consider the stories she wrote as Eris Apparent porn, but they were certainly skirting the issue of what was or wasn’t work-safe.

  The long, dull hours of fairly mindless work had always provided the perfect time for her to think of what she meant to blog about. She often spent entire days locked deep in her fantasies, perfecting and honing the words she’d use to describe her imaginary sensual exploits. Her blog was a beautiful addiction, the rush she got from writing and commenting as compelling as the ecstasy brought by drugs or booze. The interlude this morning and the conversation with Lane in the elevator had merely amplified her desire, but with the problems her computer was having, she didn’t dare do anything about it.

  It was a very, very long day.

  By the time she got home, her body ached from tension caused by the hours of sexual fantasy. She had her entire entry plotted out, with no more than the most minor of changes to create the perfection she owed her readers. Hell…owed herself.

  The computer screen flickered to life when she tip-tapped the keyboard, waking from its sleep like a lover lifting his head from the pillow to greet her as she came home. The comparison gave her a moment’s pause, but only a moment’s. Her computer was more of a lover to her than any man had been in months. It certainly gave her more of what she needed in a partner. Always ready, always available, always faithful. She opened her browser, then her email program, and smiled as the ping, ping, ping alerted her to a full inbox.

  Twelve new comments and a few extra emails, too.

  She savored the anticipation. Had he commented? Though the anonymity of the Internet meant it could have been a woman, she knew it was a he, a man. It had to be.

  She deleted several messages offering to enlarge her penis and skimmed the comment notifications, none of them from him. But the second to last email was from a common, free email service with a username she recognized.

  She let out a breath she’d been unaware of holding.

  “Well, hello,” she murmured as her fingers on the keys stroked open the message.

  Two words only, but they hit her like a tsunami.

  I’m waiting.

  Chapter 6

  I should be angry by the time you come through the door, because you’re late. Instead, the waiting has only made me hungrier for you. I wait until you set down your briefcase, close the door, shrug out of the charcoal gray jacket of your expensive suit. I wait as you hang it carefully, so it doesn’t rumple. When you reach to loosen the knot of the tie at your throat, I can’t wait any longer.

  It makes a nice leash by which to lead you. A handle I can use to open you for me. I pull it, hard, silk fisted in my fingers, and your mouth comes down to meet mine.

  You smell of cologne and newsprint, of expensive lunches and hostile takeovers. Your clothes cost more than some people’s car payments, and your body beneath them is sculpted from hours in the gym.

  Do I care who you are behind your wide, smooth mahogany desk? Behind your contracts and your Mont Blanc pen? Do I care who you are in the office? No. Because you’re here now, and you’re mine, and that’s what matters to me.

  “Take off your shirt, but leave the tie.”

  Your look, quizzical, doesn’t stop you from obeying. You tug the knot harder, widen the loop and ease it from the prison of your collar. You strip yourself of pink linen and toss the shirt to the floor, careless with it in a way you were not with your jacket.

  “And the pants.”

  Oh, you enjoy this, and the pants are down around your ankles and kicked to the side in minutes. Socks come next, but I don’t tell you to take off your briefs. Not yet. I like to watch the shape of your cock beneath the soft, heather-gray cotton. I like to watch you get hard for me.

  This is what I want, to be on my knees in front of you. I want to run my hand over your prick and watch your hips bump forward against my caress. I want to nuzzle the crisp, curling hairs of your thighs and inhale your scent. I want to close my eyes and bump at the front of your boxer briefs with my face, the way a cat will bump at its owners hand to encourage petting.

  I wet the front of your briefs with my mouth, my breath hot and seeping through the fabric to cover you. I want to feel the outline of your erection with my lips and teeth and tongue blunted by the fabric. I want you to thread your fingers in my hair and tug to tip my head so I look up at your face.

  I want to hear you say “please,” as if my mouth on your cock is a gift you’re not certain you deserve.

  I want to give it to you.

  Down go the briefs, over your thighskneescalvesankles. Now there is nothing between my mouth and your cock but desire, and soon enough not even that, because I engulf you.

  That sound you make, that low, startled moan, never ceases to amaze and arouse me. I am on my knees before you and sucking your dick, my hand on your balls, and you whisper my name.

  That is the gift you give me, the sound of my name in a sex-rough rasp. You give me your need, your desire, your passion. You give me your ecstasy, too, the taste of you flooding my mouth.

  I want to come with your cock lodged in my throat and your hands pulling my hair. I want to come to the sound of my name, shouted, and the pulse of your prick against my tongue.

  Chapter 7

  Eve was almost late to work again, but this time she couldn’t blame the slow elevator. She’d stayed up too late the night before, replying to comments and emails from her mysterious new admirer. They’d both been online, his replies to hers coming nearly as fast instant messages.

  She hadn’t been quite ready to offer that next level of communication, somehow more intimate than simple emails and yet not as personal as the telephone. The barrier of time between replies allowed her the luxury to think of what she wanted to say. It was easier to remain Eris when she could make each message almost a mini blog entry of its own, when she could take her time to form her words. Real-time conversation intimidated her.

  She hadn’t signed off until that point in the night just before it would have made more sense to stay awake until morning. She’d fallen asleep almost at once despite the fever of blood pulsing in her veins and dreamed exquisitely of hands, mouths, tongues and cocks. She’d woken as orgasm rippled through her, twenty minutes after her alarm had rung, unheard in the erotic landscapes of her dreams.

  Today coffee wasn’t just a want, it was a near-physical need, and not poofy designer coffee, either. Eve gripped an industrial-size double
espresso as she rounded the corner to her pod and stopped short.

  “Morning.” Lane bent over her desk. “I’m here to fix your computer.”

  His tie, patterned with a long, ceaseless stream of numbers, fell over her keyboard. She couldn’t stop staring at it. She didn’t think she’d ever seen him wear a tie before. “Oh.”

  “Routine inspection.” Lane worked the mouse to bring up a scrambled bunch of files Eve couldn’t interpret. “Apparently management wants to replace some of this equipment, rebuild some of the databases. Yours was logged as one of the ones having trouble.”

  Eve leaned against the padded wall of her pod. “Have you figured out why my chat connections keep dropping?”

  “Let me bring up your directory.” Lane pointed to her monitor. “I’ll be able to figure out what’s going on from there.”

  He straightened. Eve watched his fingers stroke the smooth material. Over the past two years she’d watched those hands dismember a hard drive and fly over a keyboard with the precision and genius of a piano virtuoso playing a concerto. Lane had very, very nice hands. Strong and nimble, yet gentle enough to coax a recalcitrant computer back from death or force it into submission.

  Eve had spent hours thinking of Lane’s hands.

  “Nice tie,” she said abruptly, when he caught her staring.

  “It’s pi.”

  “Pie?” Eve’s brow furrowed momentarily as she imagined cherry or blueberry, only after a moment realizing he meant the number. “Oh. Pi. I get it. Clever.”

  Again Lane’s long fingers smoothed over the satiny material. “Yeah. I felt like wearing a tie today.”

  “I like it,” Eve said.

  Silence.

  Lane smiled.